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Woah..it’s been more than a month since I wrote an entry here!

Even if I don’t update regularly, there’s nothing fantastic or good things happening in my life. In other words, stagnant.

I still keep putting on weight coz of the huge amount of rice I eat at night. I still watch my korean dramas every night.I am still busy with work, which is also a good thing but then, because of the bad economy, no pay increment, no bonus. Sigh. It’s good enough that I still get to keep my job.

How boring my life is.

The only thing I am waiting is that I can enrol in the adult piano class soon. I am being put on a waiting list at the moment. My friend has already started her lessons few weeeks ago, coz she learnt it at a different branch. How long do I have to wait huh?

Also, I wanna go for a short holiday. But all thanks to H1N1, travel seems impossible at this point. I don’t wish to risk getting that flu, since I have just recovered from a mild flu over the weekend. My heart is screaming for a holiday lah.

Is this a baby boom year or what? There are so many preggy news around me lately. I know friends around my age are either getting married or getting pregnant, but then, the preggy news around me is getting too much. There are already 3 mothers-to-be in my office and at least 4 friends who are pregnant. In the past, I would brood for at least a month over other people’s good news. Now I’m getting better at it, it only takes 1 day. Great improvement, ya? Actually I’m sick & tired of people telling me the same old consolation words . I need prayers, not consolation.

I had a short getaway during the Labour Day weekend. I went Batam with Dear and my 2 gal friends. I had been talking about a Batam trip since last year. Everything was so cheap over there! We had a little surprise about our massage coz I had booked online from one resort and was prepared to pay at least SGD50 for a massage. We didn’t expect that it was only SGD15 for each person! I think there was a promo for the resort guests but I didn’t know if this promo was extended to online booking. We all decided that it was too cheap and too short a time to do a 1-hour massage. In the end, we all took another scrub for only SGD30. All in all, we paid SGD45 per pax for the 2-hour session. CHEAP!

We had initially intended to play go-karting but the weather was darn hot and weare full of oil after the massage, we threw that idea out and went shopping instead. My friend was happily shopping for Polo Tees and stocking up her pantyliners (it’s so super cheap!). I bought J.Co donuts too, coz it’s almost half the price of what SG is selling. Not forgetting A&W too, we had the root beer float and curly fries, yummy!

I had an urge of wanting to learn piano after seeing Pearl playing on her piano. She started learning not long ago.  I suddenly recalled that learning piano was one of my childhood dream. My mom sent me to an arts class in a CC instead when I was young. I didn’t like drawing at all and always get a C for every drawing, except a B for once only. So now, I’m going to realise my dream

I just feel that the whole of April is not a good month for me. Firstly, I learnt about at least 3 pregnancies from friends and my colleagues, including my boss. I am starting to get numb on this kinda news already, seriously. Maybe I have ’see open’ already.

Next is the status of Dear’s job. He was informed that his coy’s retrenchment exercise is going to start as soon as next Monday. This is VERY worrying. And it’s not a very good sign. Sigh. People kept telling us not to worry so much. HOW NOT TO WORRY?! It’s not them who are facing this kinda problem! Somehow, I just felt very upset, just like how people kept telling us not to stress out when we still cant get a baby.

Another problem is my mom. Her health is not good these days. Actually it was already bad since over more than a decade ago. Sigh. Another worrying problem.

Had dinner last nite @ Pasta Waraku with Lina and Jo to celebrate the latter’s birthday. They has just came back from their Taipei trip a few weeks ago and they bought me gifts! Thanks gals! Just only on Sunday I was lamenting on the lack of T-shirts I had in my wardrobe and yesterday I had a new tee! I like the pink alot! Jo also did something by ‘bringing’ me along on their taipei trip. She superimposed my picture in it! I thot that was darn funny!

It’s really sad that I can’t find someone whom I can share my thoughts with. When I pointed out my anguish over something and my reasons couldn’t support my anger/hatred, they would go ‘aiyah..why are you like that’. I don’t need people to agree with me but I just need a listening ear, that’s all. So that’s why, all the more I should go away to some other places and break away from all those people. But then, our finances are tight especially with the pay cut Dear is facing and highly possible retrenchment by end of this month. There are some new additional expenses that we have to pay every mth and it’s over approximately $500. SIGH.

Feeling very down and moody now. Seriously, if I have the money now, I would love to fly to Australia and have a break over there. I just felt like I have a lot of pressure here. I have a lot of hatred inside, towards certain group of people. *sigh*

Yesterday we caught a movie, Confessions of a Shopholic, using Dear’s sunperk points to redeem the free tickets. Our seats were the 2nd row…from the FRONT! Darn! But it was still bearable. The whole show was light-hearted and funny. Go catch it if you are free. There are a few shows I’m waiting: The Proposal and The Ugly Truth. Both shows looked interesting from the trailers I saw yesterday.

Will you be switching off your lights on 28 March, Saturday from 8.30pm - 9.30pm, to vote for Earth?

To me, it’s not a problem coz I am having Earth Hour everyday. Everyday, I switched off my lights most of the time coz we mostly watched online shows on Dear’s laptop in the dark. We only occasionally switched on the lights for a while to find things in the kitchen or bedroom. That really saves the electricity bills and of course, to save the Earth!

While some people can go for seminar talks on pregnancy or being a new mom, I can only go for women’s health seminar. Anyway, I went to one last Sat, with the companionship of chin & xl (thank you gals, for sacrificing that $12..lol!) Through one free bone mass test, I got to know that my bones are becoming soft progressively. Not in good condition. Same goes for Dear whose condition is even worse than mine. No wonder he always get fractures and loose ankles. I wonder did he ever take any calcium-rich food during his younger days. We both gotta start taking our calcium supplements.

No news from Dear’s company yet. It’s keeping people in suspense and it’s killing me coz I wanna know if he is affected. Sigh.

I mustered enough courage to make a decision and plan that will cause us burdens in terms of financial, emotional and time. Shall not reveal explain what is it. I hope everything will just go smoothly. *cross fingers*

Edit: The above sentences does not imply that I am pregnant. So no need to guess.